and full stop

I used to write things in this blog. However it's been almost half year i didn't type or write anything in to my blog. Some say i am un-productive, and some say i didn't care about my talent anymore but i think is not about all of them. I felt stuck at the moment. I did not know what should i do. I am thinking too much about something that i am not suppose to be thinking.
There are a lot of dreams in my mind and because those dreams i could not focus with one to another aspect i have to finishing.....
life sometimes confusing me
life sometimes trap me and i could not escape
life hold me tight and i could not breathe and i hate it
life make me scare and carry on me to my funeral so close
a lot of responsibilities i bear and afraid to admit it,those are belong to mine
I wish i could bring back the time to my past when i am younger
i do not have to thinking about life,responsibility,and death
i do not like put my life through to an adult world...so nasty,wild,dirty and tired
just let me be...and full stop