and full stop

I used to write things in this blog. However it's been almost half year i didn't type or write anything in to my blog. Some say i am un-productive, and some say i didn't care about my talent anymore but i think is not about all of them. I felt stuck at the moment. I did not know what should i do. I am thinking too much about something that i am not suppose to be thinking.
There are a lot of dreams in my mind and because those dreams i could not focus with one to another aspect i have to finishing.....
life sometimes confusing me
life sometimes trap me and i could not escape
life hold me tight and i could not breathe and i hate it
life make me scare and carry on me to my funeral so close
a lot of responsibilities i bear and afraid to admit it,those are belong to mine
I wish i could bring back the time to my past when i am younger
i do not have to thinking about life,responsibility,and death
i do not like put my life through to an adult world...so nasty,wild,dirty and tired
just let me be...and full stop

teruntuk sebuah kegelisahan

Adakah yang pantas aku katakan ketika romansa ini berlumut dusta
apa lagi yang aku perjuangkan untuk sesuatu yang tidak pernah aku tahu
Menggelepar diantara tanya, tersiksa diantara luka yang menganga
Bilakah semua ini hanya rekayasa sebuah penantian yang takut sendirian
hmmm... entah lah aku tidak mampu mempertahankan semua kemunafikan